Take me away.

/ ►Saturday, August 28, 2010 @ 10:10 PM

I tried my best to counsel you . And i tried convincing you . You keep saying you're okay . BUT YOU'RE NOT . Thats it alright . NONE OF MY BUSINESS . I cannnot be anymore patient . It's just irritating to look forward to a conversation with you guys and i get it . I TRIED MY BEST . No one cares . Care about others , yes . REMEMBER TO CARE ABOUT YOURSELF TOO . enough is enough okay .

/ ►Friday, August 27, 2010 @ 6:26 PM

I'm super sorry , I just cannot stay committed . I don't know whats wrong with me . I'll try my very best but i cannot guarantee I'll give my 100% best . Yes , i had fun . BUT that was the past . What matters most now is NOW . I don't know how long I would be committed . Because I don't find anything there is for me to commit myself to . IF probably , THEY have treated me better, i would have stayed on and helped . But I'm sorry ... we just have communicating problems .

/ ►Tuesday, August 24, 2010 @ 9:11 PM

Heyy all people !
I am like FINALLY posting a proper post ayyye ? MY DEAREST 23 AUGUST , WE OWE EACH OTHER A MOVIEEEEE TREAT :D Got back maths test today . And oh man i feel like killing myself . STUPID CALCULATION ERROR :( pfffffffft ! hahah . browsing through facebook now and doing nonsensical stuffs . :D I feeeel like this picture of mine but me scared :( maybe its just infuatation . hoooope sooo ! and oooooohh , holidays are like so freaking nearrr . who is excited ! I AM . hahaha . outings alrights peeps ! alrights people ! i wanna continue browsing facebook !
CHARLENE
and ohmygosh , that article is up unfront of the general office . :( NOOOO !

LOL / ►Monday, August 23, 2010 @ 9:07 PM

Currently chatting with Old man/Grandfather (Aqmal) and Mother (Bianca) . funny la we all . damn hilarious . hahahahha . crazy people on the loose . old man and mother always MIA . leave me alone .

shuddddd up ! / ► @ 7:21 PM

I'm glad that everything's going our way now . FINALLY . and what we don't need most is bastards and bitchs trying to sow discord between us . I have spent a lot of effort to mend this friendship and i definitely don't need you to destroy it . so get it clear , what's my business , remains my business . thank you for caring but i don't need it cause you may somehow destroy it unknowingly .
BYEBYE .
CHARLENE

I think I'll try defying gravity . / ►Sunday, August 22, 2010 @ 7:08 PM

BIRTHDAYS ! / ► @ 10:20 AM

BIRTHDAYS !

~~Aqmal - August 03~~ Gifts Given

~~Anis♥- August 04~~ Gifts Given .

Time to start saving up and buy those fantabulous gifts for lovelies !

Nadiah♥ - August 24

Bianca♥ - September 25

Christy♥ - October 28

YuXuan♥ - October 20

Casandra♥- December 04

Atiqah♥ - December 15

Sara♥ - December 10

Farisah♥ - December 29

life is not nintendo game . / ►Thursday, August 19, 2010 @ 11:00 PM

Currently listening to Love the way you lie . I only love the chorus part . ONLY love the chorus part best ! HAHHA .

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Just gonna stand there and hear my cry

Today was an average day . Not really , I went extreemely crazy today , especially during the bonding session with Christy today . :D And oh , something happened today and it makes me smile to the fullest length of the size of my mouth . hahah .

You're the reason i'm riding a roller coaster life .

Sometimes you make me go high , like when you start talking to me . sometimes you make me go emo , 'cause you avoid me , which is damn obvious . sometimes you make me angry , because you avoid me non-stop for the first half of the term . sometimes you make me disappointed because you never talk to me for a pretty long time . sometimes , i just wish to say ILOVEYOU .

I'm not alone to fit the jigsaw puzzle of life .

but life would be better if your picture would to appear after the end result of that puzzle . iloveyou .

You're the reason I shine everyday even in my worst days .

Everytime i see you , there is a flash . which would remind me to be postive . iloveyou .

You're the reason I formed a smile on my face (:

my friends would shout out my name super loud when they see you 'cause they want me to know you're here . but then you turn back and their faces look to the floor . and you can actually ignore all this when it happened right infront of you .

You're just simply the reason of everything (:

i jut wanna let you know i love you . but i know you will never love me back . but i really wish i could rewind .

alrights . byebye . its 11 oclock now and i haven't even started on my revision for pytharagos's theorom test tomorrow. BYEBYE ! i am so freaking dead .

PICTURES , as i promised. / ►Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 7:22 PM

This pictures were taken on Saturday . More too go alrights , Pictures with casandra will be uploaded too :D
BYE !
CHARLENE

i believed and lost faith in love because of you . / ►Monday, August 16, 2010 @ 9:07 PM

You saw me start to believe in love for the first time .

Hahaha . I am now thining of whether i should switch to onsugar . hahah . alrights . nothing interesting happened today though . so will post tomorrow . tomorrow i am gonna post pictures so watch out man ! HAHHA . bbyebye !
CHARLENE

you got my hopes high . / ►Friday, August 13, 2010 @ 8:51 PM

Heyy yo peeps !
I'm gonna try my best to post more often yeah ? Hahah . Seriously manx , i hope my parents let me out tomorrow . Tomorrow gonna study with Bianca , Farisah and Aqmal . Please please please let me out of the house. HAHAHAH . alrights . will update more through facebook and maybe blogger if i have the time yeah ? BYE !
CHARLENE.

emotions running wild . / ►Thursday, August 12, 2010 @ 9:31 PM

DEAR DIARY .

If i tell you i am not jealous , i'm just kidding you . Don't ever believe my words . Apparently , I really feel like bashing my laptop's screen . I seriously abhor this feeling man . If i tell you i'm okay , i am lying through my skin . If i tell you i don't know anything about it , the truth is , i know EVERYTHING about it . its truly pathetic . it was my moment of folly of letting everything happen from the start . i shouldn't have done anything . nothing will start . i wouldn't be standing aside watching all this .

I don't want your excuses . You think you can fix it . but what you're fixing is just your source of entertainment . What you don't know is that my heart is breaking into tiny pieces when i just realised it . How would you have reacted when i did it to you . Just 2 days . you didn't even put in any effort and wow , you achieved it . I TRIED FOR FREAKING 2 MONTHS . and i am nowhere halfway towards where you are . SO WHAT IF THERE IS A BARRIER ? even if you want to help , you're supposed to help lift the barrier , not to create more space between us .

to you :

my world came crashing down ever since you appeared . but afterall , you;re my friend and i love you for it but what can i do if that really ever happens ? its not your decision , not your choice . i indeed cannot interfere in the choices that other people make . but you yourself should know very much . what i've been yearning so much for is now yours but not mines . of course imagine how i feel . i hope you do understand . you do know why my emotions are running wild . i really did trusted you . i just really didn't expect this from you . i am still not prepared for the unexpected . i really wanna the good old times back . dont you ? and on , for thosse who is guessing who i am talking about , its not what you think .

BYE BYE .
CHARLENE .

The History Behind Me

I'm Charlene Ng Yu Ling . Born on 03/October/199 . Am a mixed chinese-malay too . I love cutestuff and music too :DD I stalk and explore around , and i look beyond things too . Which just simply means I think too much ;D I so don't love being alone . And i too don't love being lonely . In case you don't know , being alone and being lonely are two different things .